okay. so people with eating problems, when they come to deal with them, have to come to terms with the fact they're not dieting to lose weight it's normally a different issue completely that they must face and resolve. however, i know what my issue is, i know that i'm not doing this to lose weight and i even know the real issues behind my problems.
so technically i shouldn't be losing weight becuase i know what my problems are and why i'm really doing this. but i do still have issues with food. so maybe, just maybe, i just want to lose weight. it's as simple as that. i want to lose weight, and i am doing. any other issues i have must be separate to this.
anyway, i'm so emotional lately, i've been crying at everything and i'm not normally an emotional person AT all. for example, i tried to do this aerobics thing that my mum does but i just could not physically do it i just couldn't follow it it was so fast, and i got really upset and started crying. i mean what the fuck crying cause i can't to aerobics, how pathetic! so i ran up and down the stairs loads, i did some sit-ups and press-ups and more running up and down the stairs. i've had calcium tablets today (don't want my teeth to rot, and i have bad bones as it is) and vitamins. i'm having water soon and i've had a few sips of two cups of coffee (one went cold, i'm sure there was a bug or something in the other!!!)
BUT i'm going to my dad's later :( he gives biiiig big portions. i'll ahve to say i ate loads and a late lunch.
oh why is my life so full of excuses?
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