my boyfriend comes home TODAYYYY!!! i can't wait to see his lovely face i've been missing him like i dont' know what.

anyway, despite last nights meal fiasco i have quite a flat stomach today! i haven't weighed myself yet. for some reason if i dno't weigh myself the second i get out of bed i feel quite apprehensive to trust the number i see when i weigh myself later. even if i've not eaten or drank anything. i just feel like there might be more weight since i've got up...lol i don't know.

i think it's cause i used to weigh myself like ten times a day and it must have got bigger during the day. i don't remember.

sooooo i'm not gonna eat (a lot) today. my mum's finally back to work so i have the house free to do what i want. i often ffind it difficult to not eat anything in the evenings, so i think i'm gonna cut up a banana and cover it in a bowl with some clingfilm and just have small sections all throughout the day. that way i won't even feel hungry, it will make me feel a bit nervous (that i dont' feel hungry) and later i won't eat anything!

hopefully my plan will work. i might be with my boyfriend anyway, in which case i don't need to eat anything at all! brilliant times.

should i get some weed today? i've been waiting for some for aaaaaages. hmm maybe. but i'd have to meet up with andy and i hvae so much work to do. unless he comes round while i do art lol.

anyway, here's some more pictures.

wowza! i want hair and a waist like this <3