oh my god oh my god oh my god the guilt of what i have eaten today has well and truely set in SHIT i hate myself omg what am i gonna do? tomorrow i'm going out i'm wearing a TIGHT dress. fuck what can i do? i cannot cannot cannot make myself sick i just can't do it i despise it, but i can't get laxatives my mum is in all night she'll know..fuuuuuuuuuck i'm just gonna hvae to do  a shit load of exercise before i go to bed. dear god i hate myself.