okay. the last week i've eaten terribly. not even terribly with regards to trying to fast, i mean terribly for someone who eats a normal amount if that makes sense. I've had a twix something like three times last week. disgusting.

i've come to the conclusion it's my pill. i can not eat for the week i am off for my period really easily, but when i'm back on the pill it's just like FOOD NOW. i have a large appetite. even if i'm not hungry, i just want to taste something.

so i'm going to try something new, again. okay i fail completely at this, i really am not loving myself at the moment believe me. i'm going to just try healthy eating in general. so that i do actually eat three meals a day but smaller portions and healthy food, not really any snacking. this poses a problem when i go to my dad's, his portion sizes are HUGE, and his food is rarely healthy. i have a weird relationship with my dad in that i don't really tell him how i'm feeling AT all, so i just can't tell him that his portions are too big :( silly i know.

anyway, despite all that i'm completely stressed and not even happy with other areas of my life lol. if i don't get an A in french my life is officially over.